HOLLYWOOD, Calif. — Marie Osmond is opening up losing her 18-year-old son Michael Bryan, who committed suicide on Feb. 26.
In an emotional interview airing on The Oprah Winfrey Show Thursday, Osmond admits she endured every parent's worst nightmare when her son jumped to his death from the balcony of his Los Angeles apartment.
"[He told me], I have no friends,' " she recalls of their last phone conversation. "It brought back when I went through (postpartum) depression because you really feel so alone. I'm not a depressed person, but I understand that place, that darkness.
"I said, 'Mike, I'm gonna be there Monday and it's gonna be OK.' But depression doesn't wait 'til Monday."
Osmond says she is trying to move on with her life despite living with regrets.
"I think there's always 'what if's,' " she tells Winfrey. "What if I had just put him on a plane and said come be with me, or gone there? I think if you live in 'what if's,' you stop living."
The grieving star also defends her decision to get back to work on her Las Vegas show just weeks after the death.
"It was really hard," she explains. "It was a calculated decision. I'm unique, I guess. I'm a female in the entertainment business who has been working 48 years consistently. My stage is my safe place. It doesn't scare me, like I guess it scares some people. And I knew that if I didn't get back on stage that I may never get back on stage."
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